Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

Since I didn’t get any Christmas cards mailed out this year I thought I’d go ahead and post the pictures that I would’ve used had we actually mailed them. Christmas kind of snuck up on me, and I didn’t really get a chance to get much of anything done. I didn’t put up my tree until the week before, and it probably won’t come down for a while. I just don’t have the time! :( Anywho, on with the pictures!

Here are the kids with their Teachers. The AWESOME ladies who take care of them during the day. I couldn’t ask for better teachers. Dahrran had MacKenzie’s teacher in Kindergarten, and so we were overjoyed when we found out M was getting her! Kaitlynn’s teacher is new this year, but it such a sweet lady. Dahrran’s current teacher is super nice as well!



And then there is this one….This is MacKenzie’s “boyfriend” L. She talked him into wearing his suit, (even after his mom couldn’t!!) so they could dance and look cute together! She’s quite the charmer that’s for sure!! On another note, L’s mom made the girls dresses!

 

Oh, and I wasn’t exactly thrilled with M’s hair either!!! But that was before I found this website! Check it out if you have a little girl!

Aww shoot….

Might as well call me Betty Crocker. 
Guess what we made today?

Sugar cookies! :) Just in time for Christmas.

 

And just to prove I’m no Martha Stewart……I give you the “mess”



And that my friends is CLEAN!

*If you look hard enough in the first picture you’ll see the sinks of dishes as well as the stove that is fully full of crap!! Not to mention the other crap that is all over my counters! :) *

Have a Merry Christmas!

What I’m working on

So the last few posts have been quite the downers. Sadly that’s just who I am this Christmas. It’s not for lack of wanting to be in a better mood, it’s just not who I am right now. All I want for Christmas is someone to come clean and decorate my home, and THEN for it to stay that way over break so I can enjoy the time with my kids. Sadly I don’t think I’ll be getting my Christmas wish.

In other news, I decided to make crayon rolls for the girls’ stockings. I’ve had a few people ask what they were. Needless to say I’ve educated some of them. But at the same time, I realized I LOVED making them, and so I took a few (16) orders….might be in over my head, but I LOVE IT! :)

There they are. I love making them. So I picked up some more fabric today. Let me know if you need one. (Oh, and these two need new homes…they were just my prototypes, and the ones I’m making now are bigger and more what I was going for!)

Big Ole Pitty Party

I’m having a hard time getting in the Christmas spirit this year. Not sure what it is. Joel is gone tonight, and it’s hitting me really hard that we don’t even have our tree up and it’s the 11th of December. I don’t have shopping done. And after looking over our accounts, it’s going to be hard to finish up this week like I’d hoped.

I keep thinking about our miscarriage. Why I’m not sure. Probably because we’d talked of looking into adoption or foster care around Thanksgiving, and haven’t done more since.

I miss my mom. I hate this time of year because she’s not here. The last time she was here for Christmas was 6 years ago. We have plenty of family that loves us, and we get to see around Christmas time, but there is something about having your mommy home for Christmas.

Joel isn’t home tonight. I’m not missing him because I know he’s having a good time. And the kids are actually being angels so what the hell my deal is, is beyond me. Just a a big ole pitty party I guess. I have so much on my to-do list, and nothing is getting done.

Seriously, anyone who knows me IRL can come over tomorrow and help get me in gear to get my tree put up, and cookies made. And maybe help time slow down for just a little bit! I’m overwhelmed!

….testing….

Hello everyone. Seems I always end up writing these types of posts when I’ve been gone for a while. I know, a while is a bit much this time. I don’t think I’ve gone this long without blogging before.

I’m in a funk. You see I’m not sure what happened. Okay so I am, Life Happened.

We’ve been busy. But there are TONS of moms who are just as busy, if not busier than I, and find time to blog. I guess part of my problem is I feel like I’m ignoring my family if I sit in my office and blog all night. Because let’s be honest here. I’m not a morning person.

I haven’t forgotten about my blog, I’ve tried to write this post many of times:

Oh how I miss you. I miss my friends that blogging has made, I miss that I don’t get to share my family with the world. I miss how easy it was to just tell you all the little things. There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. And crazy enough, it’s simpler now than it was when things were really rough. But I still have neglected to come here. I’m not sure why. For fear that you’ll all look at me in a different way, or that I won’t get it into the words that I actually want to say. I feel lost. Lost at blogging, lost as a parent, lost as a wife, lost in life. I’m so tired of people thinking that I should be someone I’m not. I’m not perfect. I never have been. But the part that’s the hardest is, I think I should be perfect.

That was just one of the many blog posts, during my darker days. Now that Christmas is right around the corner I’m glad to report that I’m trying to be more positive. I’m trying to be a better mommy, wife, blogger, friend. But not all days are sunny and shiny.

Please just bear with me, as I come back to this journey of  blogging love. Because really I DO miss you all!