Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Senior Shots

Thanks everyone for the warm wishes. Believe me to those who contatcted me it's none of you. I don't know if the people even know who they are. And really I like it that way, I don't feel like I'm hurting anyone! I'm just bummed about it all, but I'll get over it. Because I've got lots of things to look forward to in the next month!!!!!!

So what do I have to look forward to you ask? Lots! I got a call yesterday, for a job that I applied for about 5 months ago. They'd given the job to another person, but I was the second choice, and was turned down because they thought it was more important for me at the time to handle Kaitlynn's condition. Which I'm glad they chose the other person now, at the time not so much! Well the job is availiable again, and they offered it to me!!!!! It's just a part time job, mainly working every Sat. for a couple hours. The best part is, I get to work with people, and it's here in town!!!!! No gas cost! I will have some day care costs every now and then, but that's what a working mom has!

Another thing to look forward to, Dahrran, my baby, starts Kindergarden in two weeks from tomarrow! I can't believe it, and I know I'll bawl my little eyes out when I watch him get on that bus! He's excited, but not. He doesn't want to go. I know this will pass, and he'll have a blast once he gets there!

Then we've got Kaitlynn's first birthday! Oh they party we will have! We have a lot to celebrate! Kaitlynn is a special girl, and I want to celebrate in a big way. Also it will help us to thank the people that supported us, and gave us strength in our hard times! It will be a fun time!

Then just days after Kaitlynn's first birthday, MacKenzie gets her first!!! First day of Preschool! My kids are growing up so fast! She is more excited than Dahrran seems to be! She keeps telling everyone she's going to school!

A lot to do and a lot of firsts! My first job since MacKenzie was born, Dahrran's First day of Kindergarten, MacKenzie's first day of preschool, and Kaitlynn's first Birthday. Joel doesn't have a first comming in August, but he did start a new job on Monday! He loves it. And loves working with animals again! I think it's what he was ment to do. It makes for a happier daddy, and a happier mommy, thus a happy family!


Now to get along with my title! My sister conned me into taking her senior pictures. We got in a shoot the other evening, and came up with a couple awesome pics! I'll let you see just one, because she hasn't even seen them yet! But I'm so excited!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

One of those moods

Ever have moments where you just want to change everything from your past? Or not so much everything, but some of the people? There are days when I wonder why I even try to be nice. Why do I hold back my emotions? Because it's no use, nothing changes, no one tries.

But I'm so tired of holding back, being nice, and then getting talked about behind my back. I hate some of the things I am put through, but I've tried to make the best of it. I've just come to the conclusion that there was nothing I could do about the situations, so I've pretty much sucked it up, been nice, and bit my tounge.

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of Bitting my Toung!!!!!! I'm a grown woman, I've got my own children, and I've decided I'm NEVER going to do to them what's been done to me. I'm never going to be stubborn. I'm going to love them no matter who they love. I'm going to be there for them. NO. MATTER. WHAT. No matter what life throws my way, I will be here. I will give them the choice to leave and move where they want, and I will always be here. When they need me to listen, I will be there. If they need a hug, I will be there. If it comes to putting their happiness before my own, it will happen. I would rather see them happy, than be happy myself. If they tell me there are things I need to change, I will try my hardest.

I will listen. I will love. I WILL be there. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Lovingly.FOUR-EVE-RRRR.

Sorry to be a downer, but I'm having a hard time right now. There are people bogging me down, but there is only one thing I can do about it. Which isn't the right thing. So I sit here, do nothing, and sulk for afew days. Then just let it normal. It's a vicious cycle, but what do I do?

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Another Giveaway!!!

Lauren over at Stay Classy has an awesome and FUN giveaway going on, with 5 days of questions! It's so much fun to answer, and see what other have to say! Come one everyone, go enter, and maybe you can win the awesome necklace she's got to giveaway!!!!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Swimming in Fast Action

Here are some pictures from our mini vacation! On the way down we had one PACKED expedition! The kids did awesome!

Of Course when we got down there Kaitlynn, and Kendol were GONE!!! See their moving so fast! LOL!
Then it was some time for Pool Fun! Kaitlynn had so much fun!!!!
Then we had to try out the FAST ACTION on my camera, it was fun to catch the kids mid jump! MacKenzie could've jumped all day long!!!
Next it was our nephew's turn! He had so much fun making different faces!!!!
Then came our other Nephew! He was really having fun with it, and even had me take action shots of him making funny faces!!!
Then Dahrran had a go at it. That boy wouldn't jump unless you were inches from him! I don't know how many times we got kicked. But then later in the night he realized he could touch if he jumped in, and was jumping in like no other!!!!
This is Joel with his two aunts!!!
When we got back from our trip, we stoped by my grandparents house. We'd caught grandma without her wig, and Kaitlynn just happened to not have her helmet on yet. So I had to take the chance to get this picture. We get it all the time that Kaitlynn looks so much like grandma. Well I see it! My grandma is a beautiful lady. Sure old age has got her down, but that's not the grandma I remember. I finally realized where my children got the awesome blue eyes. GRANDMA! My dad has the same eyes, and it's neat to me that Kaitlynn has them too!
Then we've got Dahrran with Great Grandpa (my grandpa). They're buddies. Grandpa picks Dahrran up for Coffee and Rolls on Wednesday mornings, and then they go out to the farm to get grapes, cookies, marshmellows, peanuts, jellybeans, you name it they get it!!! It started out as grapes and cookies, now it's whatever Grandpa has to share, Dahrran comes home with!!!! I love that he's been able to have such a great bond with his great grandparents! I never got the chance to get to know any of my great grandparents. One of my great grandpa's is still alive, but I've never gotten to know him. I love the bond they've got!

Well there are some to hold you over. I'm telling you, with this new camera, there probably will be pictures in every post! I'm taking probably 100 a day or so! YIKES for my hard drive!!!! Awesome for the kids' memories!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

What a nice vacation it was

We had an nice time in Kansas City, and it was nice to get to spend time with the Family! I love all of Joel's family, and it's so fun to have all the kids around! The kids had a blast in the pool! I will post some of those pictures later! We were having a blast with my new camera and the action feature on it, it was great to catch the kids in mid air!

But for the pictures that I did add to this! Do you see what I see??? She's officially got her ears pierced. She's been begging us to do it for about 3 months now, and I finally got around to getting it done. It was a spur of the moment thing, when we were out doing our errands, I just decided we'd do it. So of course I didn't have my camera with me, but we got some pictures after we got home! She did awesome, and didn't hardly cry a bit. I don't even think their were tears! If you ask her if she cried she responds, "Just a little bit, it was just a pinch, but it didn't hurt" What a trooper!

Do you see what I see on this picture? Okay so that's what I thought, because I don't see anything either! The ladies that pierced MacKenzie's ears were just like, should we pierce hers too? UM NO! I'm so not ready for that, although I do believe babies with their ears pierced are UBR cute! But, daddy agreed that we could do MacKenzie's and I wasn't going to push it!
This is Dahrran at the "house in town" aka my grandparents house in town. They lived here for a little while before they moved to the place they currently live. It's totally gone down hill, and it was just a safety hazard. The big plans were to burn it down today, so of course I wanted to get a few pictures of it before it was gone! I love all things old, and with charm so this is totally my nature! I wanted to save the windows that were in it, but they were pretty much gone and in such bad shape we couldn't use them! :( But it was fun to get a picture of Dahrran in front of it, and just hopefully he'll have my love for historic buildings.
There it is up in flames this am! It was sad to see it go, but it's safer for the kids in town that would always go to play in it!

I'll try to get the pictures from our trip up, soon! Thanks everyone for their prayers, and wishes through the rough time. It was hard on Joel, and is still taking it's toll on a daily basis, but he will be strong. Thanks again everyone!!! And have a happy rest of the weekend!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Bloggy Vacation

So I'm going on a bloggy, email, message boards, and such vacation. Joel's uncle's funeral is this week, and so we'll be spending some much needed family time. I will be back soon, and to those of you who've said prayers. Thank. You. It means a lot!!!!

Hope everyone has a great week, and we'll "see" you soon!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

The busy week, with no end in sight

What a busy week it's been at our house. Places to go, People to see, and Things to do!!!
It started off with Dahrran and MacKenzie going to spend the night with their Aunt Bridget. Off we headed to Lincoln to go see her. After some shopping, and then some playing around with my new camera I got just a couple shots of Kaitlynn with Aunt Bridget. I'm so loving my new camera, and I don't want to go back!!!! It takes nice, clean crisp pictures, and I LOVE IT!

Later that afternoon, I got an awesome picture of Kaitlynn eat ting her bitter biscuits!
Then on Thursday, Kaitlynn and I headed to Joel's parents house to help Aunt Jeanine work on the slide show for their parents. First things first, since it was Kaitlynn's 6 month anniversary, I wanted to get pictures of her head. You can see the difference already!!!!
Then of course I had to get pictures of all the action going on in the living room! See Joel is the youngest of 8, yes I said 8. And so there are 26 grandchildren, all under the age of 13. 7 of which were born in 2007. 6 of which were there on Thursday! So that made 6 babes ages 10 months to 15 months!!!! 3 of which are crawling, and 3 of which are walking! So needless to say it was a crazy house!!! See little Kaitlynn, she is 6 weeks younger than the Quads, Ben, Alex, Olivia, and Grant, seen behind her! Then we've got Erika in the pink, and Lilly in the green.
Then on Sat. we had the Gresham Days Festivities! This year our dear neighbor Amy, asked me to help her chair the local Bike Rally for the kids. In the past they've done a Poker type game, and had the children ride their bikes to different houses, choose a card, and the one with the highest score won. Well we decided to change things up this year. We went for a Treasure Hunt format, and I think it was a hit! We split the kids up into groups, and they had to find clues which lead them back to the beginning. The first team back won first place. Dahrran wasn't going to participate, but then decided he wanted to! I didn't know how well it would go with him trying to keep up with the bigger kids, but he did AWESOME!!!!!! Here's just a few pics from the day!
We ended up with 27 kids participating! It was a great learning experience for me, and I was more than glad to help out!
Dahrran's group came in 2nd place! I was so proud of him!!!

MacKenzie didn't get to ride her bike but did get some bubbles for helping us out!

Our week/weekend was incredibly busy. After our rally on Sat. we headed over to help out Joel's sister Jennifer re-roof their house after the storms that came through last month. When I got a call from Joel that his uncle had passed away early in the morning. So this week will be filled with more busy adventures, and even a short trip. If I'm not up and blogging, that's why! Hope everyone has an awesome week ahead, and we'll catch up later!

Friday, July 11, 2008

Just a quick note!

Jenny over at Daily Dose of Motherhood is asking for some suggestions on her fall candle collection! I haven't had the chance to buy any of her candles but I'm looking forward to a few that they're thinking of putting on the fall line!!! Go on ever and check her blog out, it's a great read!!!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

6 months, and what a short 6 months they've been..

Today marks the 6th month anniversary of Kaitlynn's Craniosynostosis surgery. I was recently asked to put together her "story" for my family's reunion this comming fall. I'd never really sad down and wrote what really happened. It took me about 3 weeks of writting to get it all into words, and boy once I finally got it all out, I realized I needed to share this with you all on her 6th month post opp anniversary! Kaitlynn is an amazing little girl, and I thank God every day that he was able to bring her to us. He has given me strength through her, and has deepened my relationship with Joel. Through him, with him, we became stronger parents.

Enough of my saga, here's her story! (it's a bit long) Enjoy.

Kaitlynn's Story: June 23, 2008

Kaitlynn was born on August 25, 2007 at 9:59am via c-section. Before I (Amanda) had gotten back to recovery, in our room, the nurse had noticed something was wrong with her skull; they couldn't feel a soft spot on the top of her head. We were told this news, and since she was born on a Saturday we had to wait to get any test run until Monday morning. This was the longest weekend of our lives, not knowing what was wrong with our precious little girl. I remember them coming in to get her early on Monday morning, Joel was still sleeping. The nurse came to get her to take her to radiology, for a CT scan, and about 2:00 that afternoon, they came to get her again for another scan that would show them more. We didn't get any answers until our wonderful Doctor came in to tell us what the specialist had said. I remember sitting there, and not even understanding what he said. It was such a blur, he kept talking, and I was hearing him, but I didn't understand a word of it. He wrote down the diagnosis: Craniosynostosis (cranio-sin-no-sa-toe-sis) ( Craniosynostosis is a birth defect of the brain characterized by the premature closure of one or more of the fibrous joints between the bones of the skull (called the cranial sutures) before brain growth is complete. )The nurses at the hospital were wonderful, and even brough in a computer so that we could research the condition via the internet. We spent that night crying, researching and calling family. Everyone wanted to know what it was, and we couldn't even really tell them, because we didn't know ourselves. All I wanted to do was research, research, research, but Joel didn't want to read anything on it, he just wanted to find out what the doctors said. Our Doctor was going to try to get us in touch with a Neurosurgen in Lincoln, that Joel's brothers had went to school with. We thought that would be the best option, but unfortunatly he was no longer doing the surgery because he didn't see enough cases. We then were refered to Childrens Hospital in Omaha. We were told when we left the hospital that someone would be in contatct with us from their office. They called a few days later, and set up the appointment two weeks later.

We then were headed to see a Neurosurgen in Omaha, just two short (long for us) weeks later. He looked at the scans and confirmed her diagnosis, and gave us that it was Sagittal synosis. I don't really remember much about that visit either other than them telling us what we already knew. Remember how I'd said I wanted to research...well I spent almost every day doing it! I wanted to know about it all. We were told that they do two types of surgerys, CVR (cranial vault reconstruction) and Endoscopic Crainectomny (less invasive). But we were told if we wanted to do the Endoscopic surgery she had to be under 6 weeks old. We were also told that it ususally fails, and it's not a good option, because a lot of times they end up doing the CVR months later because it doesn't work. So hearing this information we were planning for the big surgery (CVR). We were told we would be called about an appointment for a Craniofacial Clinic, where we would find out more about her surgery, meet her surgeons, and get everything started. BUT our clinic wasn't until the 29th of October. We were forced to wait 6 long weeks before we would find out when her surgery was. During that time our beloved Doctor passed away, just days before our 6 week post partum check up. Thankfully we found the other doctor that ours had been consulting with on Kaitlynn's condition. We then switched doctors and waited for our Craniofacial Clinic. Our clinc came, and both sets of grandparents came with us for support. It was great to have them there, they asked our surgeons questions I hadn't even thought of. We were told they would get the insurance settled and let us know on a date for surgery. We were looking at about 8-10 weeks before our surgery date, but they would call. We went home, and waited.

About the middle of November I got looking around on the internet for a support board, and a system of other parents going through what we'd gone through! I came across two boards that were of great support to me. There are moms all across the world that were going through what I was, they were doing the "waiting" game just like us. One of the boards had a place for you to contact other parents in your State. I figured why not, there probably isn't anyone from Nebraska. Lo and Behold, there was ONE name. So I sent an email and hoped for the best! A few days later I got an email back from woman, Susan, who's son had had the same cranio as Kaitlynn, and was now 8 years old. We emailed back and forth for a few days, and ended up exchanging phone numbers. She called one day, and I'd been doing some research on the internet of the types of surgery. At this point I was rethining our decision to do the CVR surgery. My phone call from Susan, just confirmed my thoughts. She went on to tell me their journey with Cranio. Their son was diagnosed at 5 months old, and they prayed and researched for a different option. They came across Dr. Jimenez and Dr. Barone, who were a husband and wife team doing a new less invasive proccedure at the University of Missouri. I had come across them once before in my research, but didn't know much more. After talking with Susan, I realized we had to do the Endoscopic Crainectomny. There was no other option in my mind.

I called our Neurosurgen in Omaha, and talked with his PA about it. She said she couldn't tell me much about it, but if she would talk with our NS, and get a recommendation from him of who he would recommend. She called me back two days later to tell me that he would recommend us to only one doctor, Dr. Jimenez. This was reasuring. I then went about contacting Dr. Jimenez, who is currently at the University of Texas Medical Center, in San Antonio, TX. I sent him copies of our CT scans, and pictures of Kaitlynn, along with all the paperwork for surgery. He then confirmed that yes she did have it, and he wanted us to do surgery as soon as December 5th, it was around Thanksgiving time. Joel and I both decided we wanted to get through Christmas first, and then we would do the surgery. Jimenez does surgery only once a month on the first Thursday of the month. This set us up for the 10th of January as a surgery date.

Her surgery date couldn't come fast enough. We decided to drive down for her surgery. We headed out on a Tuesday morning, and made it that evening. Kaitlynn did so great on the drive down, and was a perfect little one the whole way. We then had our appointment with Dr. Jimenez on Wed. We had all of our questions answered, and were told what to expect. We were on our way to surgery the next day. We were told to be at the hospital by 7 am, and Kaitlynn was not to have anything to eat after 5am, her surgery was scheduled for 9am. They were running behind, when we got there. Her surgery didn't get started until 12:56, and only lasted 56 minutes. She only lost 2 Tablespoons of blood, and didn't require a blood transfusion. We got to go in and see her about 2:30 or so. She did great, and looked so much different already. When we finally got to hold her we noticed the immediate difference in her head shape. She did great over night, and was realeased at 10am the next morning. Not even 24 hours in the PICU (pediatric intensive care unit). She was a completly different baby, happier, not spitting up as much, and over all just more plesant. We were then fitted for a helmet to reshape her head. We had our post op. appointment 6 days later, and on our way home.

Kaitlynn now is wearing a helmet 23 hours a day, and will be in it for a year to 18 months from her surgery date. She outgrows her helmets, and is already on her 3rd helmet. We need new ones every 3-4 months, and travel to Texas each time for new ones. Kaitlynn is such a big girl, and has just learned to crawl. She was a little bit behind on her development, but is now right on track and growing so quickly. We're hoping to be done with helmets by May of 2009. Kaitlynn will not require any more surgeries, and will grow up to live a normal healthy life. We were told that she does have a higher risk of having a child of her own with Craniosynostosis, but when that day comes we'll need to do Genetic testing. For now we are enjoying her every move, and loving her just the same as we do Dahrran and MacKenzie.

Here is a picture of Kaitlynn a day before her surgery, and a few hours after her surgery, you could see the immediate difference. I haven't taken pictures of her head shape recently, but plan on doing it in the near future.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

And the winner is.....

So today after a long day I decided the giveaway would just end whenever I got home. SO for those of you who entered after noon, you were still entered! I'd planned on being home before noon, but when I head to Lincoln, it's never just a quick trip! But more about that later.... After writting all the names, and letting Joel pick the winner is Lauren over at Stay Classy. So Lauren please email me your address, and which you would prefer, and I will get it mailed out to you ASAP!

Out with the old, and in with the new!
So today in my trip to town I finally decided I was going to do it, I was going to buy the camera I've been wanting for some time!!!!! So good-bye to my Sony Cyber shot, and in with my new Sony A200 DSLR. Don't get me wrong, it will take time, and I'm probably not going to just be able to point and shoot.*
Also along with our trip to town came me parting ways with Dahrran and MacKenzie for the next 24-36 hours. They were so excited to get to go stay the night with their aunt Bridget! They've been waiting for this night for some time now, and so I was more than over excited when she called the other day and asked if they could come stay the night!!!
* Notice, this is warning that I probably won't be bloggin photos for a little bit, or at least until I can get the hang of it!!!!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Just a reminder!

The giveaway ends tomarrow at noon, so 23 hours left! ( I know and bad me, no picture yet!) I'll get the one off my phone, it's not the greatest, but it works for now!!!! I'll also be sticking in a few of my FAVORITE GOODIES!!!! :)

Here are the pictures that my dad and sister sent for me! They're the ones who purchased them, this holiday weekend for me at local markets in Seward and Fairbury. I have seen the flag in person and LOVE IT, and will be picking up the other from my sister tomarrow!!! I haven't decided which one I'm going to use yet, but if you win, I'll let you choose!!!!!!!

Good luck everyone! :)

Monday, July 7, 2008

Our 4th!

Hello everyone, I thought I'd dump the pics of our fouth of July fireworks. I don't have the picture of the giveaway yet, and I have to admit, I didn't plan it out too well! I'm going to try and get the picture taken tonight and posted!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

The B-I-G 5-0!!!! Giveaway!

Okay, so I don't have photos yet, but I'm getting anxious to do this so I'll go ahead, and hope to get some pictures up tomorrow!!!!! You've just got to trust me that it's good.

I'm totally into Prim stuff, and so it's along those lines, that's all I'm going to say.

To be entered in this GIVEAWAY please let me know the cutest thing your child has said, or done if they're not old enough to talk. If you don't have kids, let me know the cutest thing you've seen a child do!

This giveaway ends at Noon on Wednesday July 9th. If you choose to link our giveaway to your blog, I'll enter your name twice...just be sure to let me know! Good luck to all!

Thanks so much for helping me to celebrate my 5oth POST!!!!

Friday, July 4, 2008

To you and yours!

From our family to yours. I hope every one has a wonderful day, and enjoys the freedoms that we as American's have come to enjoy.
We will be celebrating the day as a family, and may end up making it to a BBQ. We've got some fireworks, and I'm so ready for the kids to have fun enjoying them.

We went lastnight, and did the whole commercial Fireworks show, and the kids had a blast watching them. Kaitlynn didn't even fuss during them. I figured for sure they'd scare her, but she did great!!!!
On another you all want to know my surprise........and I think I may be ready to tell you........okay so I know on with it already right???
So here's the scoop. My next post will be my 50th post. I can't belive it already, it's about like all the things that have happend in the last year! So for my 50th post I will be doing a give away!!!!!
So NO I'm not pregnant, I'd be crazy if I was!!!! There is just NO way I'd be ready considering all we've got to go through yet with Kaitlynn's helmet trips! Time will tell with that one, but let's get through the first two years! (and that's a hint to anyone who thinks they need to ask me if I am preggers in the next year and 2 months!!!!!)

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


Okay so you put Surprise in the title, and EVERYONE wants to know!!!! But the question is how long do I want you to wait???? Maybe it's days, maybe it's weeks...but we all know it's not months or years, well because I probably couldn't keep a seceret that long!!!!

All I have to say is I'll be letting you all know in due time, in due time! You'll just have to keep checking back here in the next few days/weeks for the answer!!!


The fireworks are here, and I'm sick of them already. Okay so I'm mainly just sick of the idiodic parents that buy fireworks for their kids, and then let them go about setting them off all day/night long. Tonight after tucking the kids in for a long nights sleep, I headed off to take my shower for the day, and come up to find one little monkey...not sleeping at all. When I got to her room she was sitting there crying because their were Fireworks in her room, and they were loud and she couldn't sleep. I felt so bad for her, so I told her it would be okay, and she went to sleep shortly. Thank goodness they were over for the night! She loves to watch the things but when she can't see them out her window, she kind of freaks out!

So everyone what are your plans for the 4th?

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Our Weekend...and Surprise!!!!

Hello everyone? We've been quit busy this weekend! Joel's work had thier anual family company picnic on Sat. and so we decided to go and enjoy the food. They have kids games in the morning, and then lunch, and then they play B-I-N-G-O for prizes after lunch, along with adult games after the prizes are gone. Last year Joel about gave up because he wasn't winning, and said that he wouldn't win so he'd thrown his card in the air. After a little convincing he decided that he'd try one more time! Well we ended up comming home with a 6' step ladder. This year was about the same, except for the throwing his card in the air. I was getting pretty close a few times, but Joel wasn't having much luck. Then one game I was sucking it up, and he wasn't. We ended up comming home with a tie down for the truck and trailers. So all in all it was a good fun day. The kids had a blast playing on the jumpy things and the carnival rides.

Sunday was going to be laid back, but then Joel realized that the hay needed to be baled. BUT of course the stinkin baler wouldn't work right again, and after a little working, we decided we'd take the kids fishing. This was our first time fishing as a family, and Joel and I's first time together as a couple. So we needed fishing poles and all the stuff required to go fishing!!! Off we headed to the lake after a short pit stop to by all things fish. It took a while to find the perfect spot, but once we did things went okay. We didn't catch much...okay so it was only one, and I was the lucky winner! But the poor little guy was way too small, so we let him go. We ALL ended up with a little sun burn, even Kaitlynn who I'd lathered up in sun block.

I'll put up a few pictures of our adventures!! Enjoy!

Little Miss Atitude!!!!

This is my FAVORITE Picture of the whole day!!! (and I mean the hubby and kids!)


*SHHH promise not to tell???? I've got a surprise comming up, and I can't wait to share it with you!!!